at 6:11 AM

You know what, I am done with all of this. All these dramatic eclipses. All these moments of doubt. All these burdens of thoughts. All this waiting. All this awkward silence. All the lonely nights. All the lonely thoughts. All of this is just a waste of time. One day you will see that nobody has it easy. It takes time, it takes loyalty, it takes forgiveness. It takes two people, working together, believing and not giving up. And yeah, I guess I see you found someone new, and I am happy for you, I guess. But you know, I am not giving up, cause well, I am someone who never gives up. But I am done being hurt. Done letting you take over, cause you are like a disease that just won't go away unless I kill you, but I don't want to kill you. Because even thought you take over, sometimes it's not always bad. But really, you are walking all over me. I'm not a little ant you can pick at. You need to decide. You need to make a choice, because I made my choice, I'm in. If you are out, let me know, cause I can move on. Not that you don't matter, but it's not the end of everything, but at the same time, it could have gone the other way around and be the start of something beautiful. But whatever you choose, just let me know, because waiting, it's no longer something I find worth it, for anybody, cause in the end, everyone just leaves me. I don't like that. And I'm done crying, done being scared, done being left. I don't want to be abused. I just want to have someone to catch me when I fall of the edge, someone to make me smile with tears in my eyes, someone to just be with me even when I'm not the best, someone who has seen the bad side, and the good, but still stays. Make a choice, cause if you leave, I was right. You were wrong. And I win, either way.
` AMAZING THE WAY YOU ARE ! at 10:28 AM

I've been failing and fell hard lately.It was the toughest moment in my life,I swear.I couldn't control the emotions in me,I totally lost my ownself.Only those who are part of me would know the fact that I didnt had a good meal ever since fasting started.Falling sick is already a routine and there you could see the weakness in me.Yet,I knew that you amazing people are my backs all along.

Thanks a million to my dearest sister for being there with me when I cried like a river and you were exactly there to tear with me.You forced me to eat and even take that extra mile to deal a personal conversation just to make things better for me.How thoughtful my sister could ever be.For you greatest cousin,thanks alot for the 'Better in time' video cover posted on my wall.I felt a little cured after listening to it,that was so sweet of you to somehow cheer me up.And to all other girlfriends,for the random texts which I didnt even expect really crack up my day and obviously,I misss each one of you.

These beautiful people are the ones who make me wanna live each day without fear of anyone who would ever bring me down again.Thank you again,I love you all!

` JUST WANNA BE HAPPY ! at 10:20 PM

Finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don't find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings YOU the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run.Happiness comes only from appreciating what you have right now. You can even be happy by appreciating your troubles because they are helping to build your character.

` IN MY SHOES ! at 10:20 PM

A lot of things has been running out of place these days.From one to another which doesn't get any better like how i wished it could be.To hear the loved ones are in their lows makes me even down. ): I hope it'll make everyone to have a broader view of life from here.And sometimes I wonder if I could ever be as happy as cinderella which has a beautiful ending to the story because everything was too miserable lately.I wish I've got the courage to pour what have been bothering me to you girls.
` FREEBIRD ! at 7:23 AM

Hope you had a blast yesterday,babe.And hopefully,you'll love what's in the box from me cause it was really a random last minute search.Hahahaa.Whatever it is,love you to bits.(:

Tmr is gonna be a new start.Somewhat a break before I start on something afresh,err which I'm not sure when.Okay just for now,pick a date and text me.Cause I'm all freeeeee baby!