at 6:11 AM

You know what, I am done with all of this. All these dramatic eclipses. All these moments of doubt. All these burdens of thoughts. All this waiting. All this awkward silence. All the lonely nights. All the lonely thoughts. All of this is just a waste of time. One day you will see that nobody has it easy. It takes time, it takes loyalty, it takes forgiveness. It takes two people, working together, believing and not giving up. And yeah, I guess I see you found someone new, and I am happy for you, I guess. But you know, I am not giving up, cause well, I am someone who never gives up. But I am done being hurt. Done letting you take over, cause you are like a disease that just won't go away unless I kill you, but I don't want to kill you. Because even thought you take over, sometimes it's not always bad. But really, you are walking all over me. I'm not a little ant you can pick at. You need to decide. You need to make a choice, because I made my choice, I'm in. If you are out, let me know, cause I can move on. Not that you don't matter, but it's not the end of everything, but at the same time, it could have gone the other way around and be the start of something beautiful. But whatever you choose, just let me know, because waiting, it's no longer something I find worth it, for anybody, cause in the end, everyone just leaves me. I don't like that. And I'm done crying, done being scared, done being left. I don't want to be abused. I just want to have someone to catch me when I fall of the edge, someone to make me smile with tears in my eyes, someone to just be with me even when I'm not the best, someone who has seen the bad side, and the good, but still stays. Make a choice, cause if you leave, I was right. You were wrong. And I win, either way.