Write it on your heart.

silence holds many words.

` SELFISSSH-MONGER !

Lately,i have alot of things circulating this brain of mine.i could hardly sleep at night.some uncertainties controlled my mind to get into the logical reasons that one could offer me.i dont know why im that affected by all these trivals that i shouldnt be.like most said,some things are better left unsaid.yet,i gotta make a few things clear and understandable here.i absolutely dislike when someone just has to accuse.worst still,lay the blame on me with all the false assumptions.

eversince you both are together,i am glad to see your relationship blooms.cause he is my friend who, i regard as a bestfriend or a brother indeed.we know each other real well,be it the good or ugly side of us.yes,we do fight,argue and ignore one another that we took a long period of time before we could resume to talking terms again.we shared our listening ears and tried to give a word of advice to make things look better.

for me being pointed on how disturbance i am, to your relationship,i sincerely think that it's something ridiculous.if you ever judge me as someone who is trying to ruin your love life,please i bet you got the wrong person here.i hope that you could widen your mind and think like a grown-up.being paranoid is common for us,girls.but hey,doesnt mean its wrong for me to even meet-up with my very own friend.you mean just by contacting and going out with each other,im flirting with your guy? i even asked him to get permission from you before we get to meet.cause so much that i knew,you dislike us from meeting.come on,eventhough you're in a relationship,you should at least give each other spaces for their own social life and not get tied down with curfews here and there.

goodness,i dont even have that intention of being the third party and destroying my own friend's relationship.seriously,thats very kiddish.this is the reason why sometimes i try to avoid myself from contacting,yet in the end,i got blamed for a friend who doesnt treasure friendship.

fyi,im not that into guys or even love these days.its not worth my time this very moment anyway.i hope you get me,i just had to let it out here and made this crystal clear.im just too tired of prioritising and placing others first on my list.how about my feelings then?

Labels: ` pls avoid too much of paranoia.

AMALLYNA FATIIN.
♐ SAGITTARIUS.
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